An old song says of God
"give them bouquets of roses instead of ashes,
messages of joy instead of news of doom,
a praising heart instead of a languid* spirit."
[Isaiah 61:3]
At what times has this been your experience?
Place some ash and a small bowl of oil on your purple place. (Or, if this isn't going to work for you, draw it and put it somewhere visible in your room. You could even make it abstract if you're feeling arty)
languid = tired/worn out